...school...

i know i am contridicting myself but i cannot help it but to dread school more than before. i remembered myself annoucing to the whole world that i could not wait for school to start during the holidays last year. i read some of my friends's blog and they feel uncertain about the future. i am feeling the same way too. i know it's going to be a tough year for me but it will be gone real soon before i even notice it. nevertheless, i fear still tomorrow.


everyday, i dragged myself out of my bed to school. i cannot help but to yawn and feel restless during lesson time. i am losing my motivation, my concentration, my focus... everything. i am looking forward to dismissal time everyday. weekends alway bring shine to my eyes which you cannot spot on monday mornings. what's wrong with me??


the most recent contact period inspired me quite abit. it's not on choice making but on friends. in life, i cannot expect my best pals to be with me forever. i need to learn how to adjust to changes and adapt to them pretty well. i cannot always resist changes though i do not really love changes. i hate changes that screw up my life. i hate myself for not accepting it. i hate myself to be restricted by limitations and boundaries. i guess i have to learn this important life lesson through a hard way. to regret my choice? maybe it's too early to judge.

"to jump in and out of your circle"